RANDY THE ASTONISHING

Wow, what an adventure i've been on. I have one day left of school this quarter, and i think i did really well. met a few new cool people around. i've been working at hollywood video and it's been pretty swell. after school on thursday i'm headed up to missouri for a brief visit. i'm going to give my daughter a drum set if i can. i think she'll love it. i'm excited to see some old faces. my birthday is coming up but i've been trying to figure out what to do and who to spend it with. i have no idea.


oh, i went to steak n shake yesterday. i drank too much milkshake and felt like death all day today.

peace and goodwill,
randy

I am absolutely tired of society treating other people badly. I am tired of the racism that exists in every aspect of this country. I am tired of one fellow American discriminating against another American just because their beliefs are not the same. I am tired of living in a place where one person can't look at another person and say, "We are the same. We have a common goal. That goal is to be prosperous and happy. That goal is to achieve the things that we set out to achieve." I want to live in an America that allows every citizen to share the same rights. I want to live in an America that does not know a difference in race, religion or sexual orientation. I want to live in an America where everyone can be free. Nobody deserves to be looked down on based on what they believe. Nobody deserves to be denied equal rights, merely because another person does not see eye to eye with them. I want to live in an America that treats others as they would like to be treated.

as it turns out, i may have a future after all. on saturday i am registering for classes at the art institute. sooner or later i will come out of it with a bachelors degree. i will be studying digital filmmaking and video production. i'm really excited about it. there are a lot of things that i am putting on hold to do this, but years down the road i'm sure it will make those things even more enjoyable. life's a race, and i'm in it to win it.

i was flipping channels on the television earlier and i saw an episode of family guy that made me a little angry. they used the wh word joke like in the movie hot rod. but it wasn't funny when they family guy idiots did it. jerks.

when a person you know does something to hurt themselves. something that you yourself have done in the past. do you find yourself worried about them, or curious to discuss their motives and how the felt before and after. maybe contrast and compare the situations. i don't know. i mean, maybe i should be worried, but i'm not. i done the exact same thing and ended up in the same place and i know that she'll be alright.

i want to go back to high school like in never been kissed. well, maybe not.

i want to cook lunch for a girl i've never hung out with before. maybe somebody i've never even met before or even seen. or maybe i just want to cook lunch for mila kunis.

time goes by so fast. i used to hear wait a minute and that minute lasted forever. now i say wait a minute and an instant later the minute has past.

i hope i make friends when i go to school. it just seems like i hate everyone i meet until they prove themselves to me. but the problem is that there is no reason for anyone to prove anything to me.

i want somebody to set me up on a blind date, just because i've never been on one.

i want somebody to give me a great massage. NOW!

i want to watch a movie with you.

i freaking hate tow trucks.

What did you do this time?

I parked my car in a parking space.

that'll be $189.74.

jerks.

i'm so irritated right now...

i have a cool job now but i hate fucking driving all over the place. i have pretty much given up on meeting new people but new jobs bring new people...so that part kind of sucks. my first day i worked the foreigner/bryan adams show. it was....interesting. today i worked the benny hinn ministries holy spirit miracle service. tomorrow i'm working the slipknot show. what an odd weekend. i think i'm going to be working snoop dog on wednesday.

but i am irritated because i am not where i want/need to be in my life and sometimes it feels like every time i make some progress and get ready to move on, something fucked up happens that pulls me back.

i just need to get enough money to get to where i need to be.

just felt like updating

i think i might go back to working at sonic

i know i know

but it's good money

kind of

better money than i have

if anyone has any better suggestions then be my guest

i've been feeling unusual lately

oh well

how are you?

i've got to catch them all..but there are just so many

i had a job interview this morning...

i'm going to be a photographer at STUDIO ONE TO ONE in baybrook mall.

i also work at hollister.

i just need to figure out 1 or 2 more people to act in my movie and then i can start shooting it.

i have my shirt tucked in right now.

i was wearing a tie earlier.

the first thing i do when i wake up is pee.

well things have been groovy...well me and the misses are off to tc

no no...not texas city....

i mean

taco cabana

p.s.

hi

which is better?




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well i've been packing up all my shit and it's not that bad...it makes me look forward to having an apartment...the only problem is, i don't have enough money to get an apartment yet and i don't have a place to stay...i need a new job that pays me better and gives me more hours...any thoughts? i enjoy working in the bar/club atmosphere...i just need to find a better one.

so if anyone knows of a club/bar that needs a floor guy/bar back/door man...please let me know

i've probably been acting differently lately but i doubt that anyone has noticed. i have alot on my mind....well not alot i suppose, just something major. i don't know what to do and i could really use somebody to talk to about it. but it's hard for me to find somebody to talk to about this kind of stuff that i can trust. i just realized that i've been drinking alot less though. that is probably a good thing. i'm not as stressed out as i probably should be, i just...i don't know, i guess i'm just conflicted.

i hope this weekend is fun.

I had a really good weekend. thanks to everyone that hung out with me. the more you hung out with me the more thanks you get suckas. i don't know what i'm going to do for the rest of the day but i have a present to bring to somebody and when i bought it earlier i bought some girlscout cookies too...i'm going to eat them sometime and it will be amazing. i went and saw my grandma in the hospital this morning and she is still not doing very well. i can see some progress though and she doesn't want to die anymore. when she gets out of the hospital i'm going to visit her at her apartment often so that she doesn't have to chase the old man that lives in her complex just for some company. tomorrow i am going do go crazy job hunting. hopefully something will come of that. my dad's boyfriend hit me in the back of the head at the hospital and it pissed me off and i gave him a dirty look. i'm tired.